Living my life just the way i like....

Giving Up

2009-09-23T14:53:00.000-07:00

Letting go of you is hard and painful for me, but at this moment it seems the right choice to make. You might think I gave up because I don't LOVE YOU, but you are wrong, I gave up because I LOVE YOU to much and I never want you to feel pressured into making a decision. I asked you many times whether are you willing to be my girlfriend, but each time you would just answer me by saying don't you think our relationship now is fine? Do you think a guy can accept his girlfriend going out to clubs dancing and letting some other guy practically hug her and dance?, do you think a guy can accept his girlfriend going out with another guy for a movie?, or even sending messages and talking on the phone for hours with some other guy? . I seriously doubt any guy could tolerate that, but guess what, I did even though I'm not officially your boyfriend. I did not mind any of those things just because I changed myself for you, but I guess all those sacrifices I made isn't useful at all because in the end you still won't accept me. I may have let go but I won't stop loving you and caring about you, all I hope for is that you will soon find someone who loves you for who you are and care for you more than I could ever do. Everyone always ask me, hey Joesinn why you doing her assignment? Is it cause she is your girlfriend? I say no, then their reply was like wow why you so good do assignment for someone who is just your friend. I didn't mind it at all but it really hurts me because behind me they say I'm a "SOHAI". I hope you won't misunderstand what I'm trying to say here because I didn't mind at all because I think it's worth it because I really LOVE YOU. I can't say it out to you that's why I'm expressing everything on my blog. My heart hurts like mad, tears keep flowing down my cheeks, and I can't sleep at all. Deep inside I know I really LOVE YOU. I would love to be alone for this few days, don't sms me or anything because I will be fine. GOODBYE MY LOVE. I'M FINALLY LETTING GO. THE MOMENT I SAW YOUR POST SAYING LESLIE DELIVERED DESSERT TO YOU MY HEART TOTALLY SHATTERED INTO PIECES.

Galatians 2.20

2009-09-10T09:34:00.001-07:00

I would really love to live up to this verse in the bible, but it seems like I can't no matter how hard I try. I used to be close to you GOD, but right now I have no idea what's stopping me from coming back to you. GOD I hope you will guide me back to my life with CHRIST.

Missing You

2009-09-10T09:27:00.000-07:00

Thinking of you day and night. Missing you like mad but I'm not sure whether you can feel it or not. Would really hope you can spend more time with me and make me feel that I'm important to you. Just hope you can show me that you care about me by sometimes expressing it out. I'm feeling lost these days and there are lots in my mind that is troubling me. Hoping you can be here right now. I really miss you MY DEAR.

To my beautiful and cute cute dear

2009-08-22T12:57:00.000-07:00

Sorry ah I haven updated my blog for so long. Hope dear likes this post la. : ) . This picture was taken by my dear at Barcelona last Saturday. My dear always looks so beautiful and cute no matter how drunk you are or how you dress. Missing you so much my dear. MMUAX

A new beginning

2009-08-22T12:44:00.000-07:00

Behold, a new beginning. Remember, when you think all is lost and when you are ready to give up on yourself as well as the world and everything that goes with it, YOU ARE WRONG!!! Just remember "HE" is always ready to be there for you, he will guide you, hold your hands as you encounter difficulties in life, and he will carry you through all the disappointment that you are facing. So, remember never ever give up, because you still have "HIM". Who is "HE"? He is our god, our beloved father who gave us life and the heaven and the earth, he is always next to you waiting for you to seek his guidance and love. Thank you god, I may have strayed apart from you, but you have never ever given up on me yet, and for that I thank you with all my heart and soul, I thank you for being next to me waiting for me just to call your name, I thank you for not giving up on me and everyone else that has given up on you and forgotten you, for all this I thank you.

When all fails, "HE" doesn't because he is the almighty god.

Ni Bu Zai

2009-08-03T17:23:00.001-07:00

Dang shi jie zhi sheng xia zhe chuang tou deng
Ni na bian shi zao chen yi jing chu men
Wo ce shen gan dao ni zai zhuan shen
Wu shu mo shen ren
Zheng zai deng xia yi ge lu deng
Yi zai cuo shi bi ci cui ruo de shi fen
Bu guo ke wang yi ge wen de yu wen
Wo guan le deng
Hei an ba wo bing tun

Ni bu zai
Dang wo zui xu yao ai
Ni que bu zai
Wu ji deng dai xiang du bai de nan ai

Ni bu zai
Gao xing hai shi bei ai
Ni dou bu zai
Wo shou le shang zai tou tou hao qi lai
Dan ni bu zai
Bu zai

Shi jian zai an xia xu duo ci kuai men
Chen muo li ting jian zhuan dong de miao zhen
Yi ge ren chi fan zhe ge qing chen
Gu du yi ren fen
Ni di shen shuo ni you bie ren
Wo de hua tong zhi you zi ji de ti wen
Zen yang ren zhen ye bu yi ding cheng zhen
Ni shuo de dui
Wo bu de bu cheng ren

Na xie yao bai
Wo dou ming bai
Dou ming bai
Dan ni bu zai
Ai yi bu zai
Bu zai

Ni bu zai
Dang wo zui xu yao ai
Ni que bu zai
Yi ge ren fen shi liang jiao de lian ai

Ni bu zai
Gao xing hai shi bei ai
Ni dou bu zai

Xiang kong qi ban bu cun zai de cun zai
Zai mei you hen ji de ai
Ni bu zai
Dang wo xu yao ni de ai
Ni bu zai

Crush (falling in love with YOU)

2009-08-02T12:06:00.000-07:00

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside it was a rush, what a rush

Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way
About me, just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl?
Are we just friends? Is there more? Is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever!

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we could be, where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain?t going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we could be, where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going away-ay-ay
This crush ain't going away-ay-ay

Going away
Going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay

Holding your hand

2009-07-21T09:06:00.001-07:00

Will there be any chance of me holding your hands to guide you through all your sadness and also share your happiness? Maybe yes and maybe no. But no matter what, just remember I will always be here for you when you need me. One day you might be holding some other lucky guy's hands instead of mine, but do know that as long as you are happy, I will always be happy too. Loving someone doesn't mean you got to be with them, just by seeing her happy is more than satisfying. I really do think it's time for me to let go, because it really hurts me to see you heartbroken as you are forcing yourself to forget about HIM. Just remember, you will always have a special place in my heart. MMUAX

Should I let go?Am I trying to hard?

2009-07-21T08:54:00.000-07:00

Am I trying to hard for you? I'm so afraid that you are suffocating because of that. The way I care about you may be different from what you have experienced in your previous relationships but this is the only way that I know of showing how much you mean to me. I feel like the more you see me, the more I make you think of HIM. Maybe I'm just thinking to much, but if I'm making it really hard for you just let me know and I will definitely back off. I just want you to be happy, whether with me or with someone else. Seeing you happy will make me happy.

Waiting For You

2009-07-19T11:04:00.000-07:00

The rain calms me down, my whole body just feels free when rain touches my skin. The rain is like a friend to me. I love crying in the rain because no one can see it.
Am I who I really am? Or am I just hiding my true self?
I really want to know the answer to that question.
Sometimes people see's the bad side of me and sometimes the good,
sometimes they see me pissed but sometimes they see me laughing like a maniac,
but which of it is real?
I can't even answer it myself.
All I know is, whenever I'm with you, I feel me,the real ME.
No matter what happens and wherever you are going, just remember that I will always be here waiting.

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?

It's been a long time since you called me
You got me feeling crazy
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.
Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
That's not how you wanted to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.

You and Me

2009-07-19T10:57:00.000-07:00

Can you forget about him? Do you think I will have a chance to make a difference in your life? Will I ever be the person that you wish to see whenever you are sad or happy? Will I be the 1 who will hold your hand until the end of time? I really don't know when you will be able to answer all my questions, all I know is I will wait no matter how long it takes and how painful it is for me, whether you will ever be with me or not,but all I can tell you is that I LOVE YOU and I will do all I can to make you happy.

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive.

Manchester United 3 Malaysia 2

2009-07-19T10:47:00.001-07:00

There wasn't really any doubt who will actually win the game, but Malaysia did put up a good fight by scoring twice ( Congrats to team Malaysia ), but in the end Manchester United did manage to win the game with just a few minutes to spare. The final score was Man.U 3 M'Sia 2. The winner being scored by an ex-Liverpool player, Michael Owen. It was a wonderful experience for me as I got to watch the my favorite team play LIVE. All in all Man.U is still the team to beat in the Premier League even though they have lost to main players ( so watch out Liverpool,Chelsea, Arsenal and Man.City ), we are not going to give up the title without putting up a good fight. Long Live Manchester United.

To My Dear ^^

2009-07-17T23:12:00.000-07:00

Don't know how you will look like today leh? Dressing up just for your cousin's wedding. But I am sure of 1 thing, no matter how you dress, you will always look so beautiful to me. Miss you dear. MMUAX!!!

Manchester United Is In Town...

2009-07-17T23:04:00.000-07:00

My favorite Red Devils is in town. Manchester United vs Malaysia XI. No doubt who the winner will be but still it's going to be a fantastic game for all the Man.U supporters. We may have lost CR7 and Tevez but we still have plenty of bullets left in our holster. No offense to other Premiership teams, but Man.U is going to whop all your asses again in the League next year. Glory Glory Man.United. Once a fan, forever a fan. Long Live Manchester United.

My dear

2009-07-14T09:34:00.000-07:00

Can't stop thinking of her day and night. Just feel like hugging her to sleep every night and kiss her cheek every morning before starting the day. Every thing that I seem to do know, it all relates back to her, really starting to fall deeply in love with her. Hope you know it la DEAR. = ) . Don't know what you doing now leh? Missing you so so much. MMuax

A song for my Dear( you know who you are) = )

2009-07-14T09:28:00.000-07:00

You are the girl of my dreams
In my heart, I believe
You are the girl of my dreams, baby
Of my dreams
All alone, in my room
Wishing that you were here
Without you, in my arms I'm
holding back all of the tears
Without you in my life I'll never be satisfied

Sometimes I feel I could
have been better to you
All I wasn't is a chance
To prove that my love is true
Without you in my life I'll never be satisfied

Baby let's go back in time
To when our hearts would shine
And I could hold you tight
In my dreams at night

Chevonne

2009-07-14T09:22:00.000-07:00

My dear lil sis. I'm sorry your big bro haven't really been free to hang out with you for quite some time. But DO REMEMBER, you are always my lil sis and I will always be there when you need me. I will see you soon okay? And when I do, I will definitely give my dearest sis a BIG BIG bear HUG!!! Remember you are never alone cause you will always have me,this big naughty Brother there for you 24-7. = )

My beautiful Mummy

2009-07-13T06:28:00.001-07:00

This is my lenglui mummy Bridget aka Kai Mah, hehe. Someone who I haven gotten close with by going to Ampang Gospel Church. Someone that is always there for me whenever I need her. Someone that loves God like I do. But most importantly, she is someone that always supports me. Thanks mummy. Son love u so so much. ^^

Jia Hui

2009-07-13T06:20:00.001-07:00

She is the girl that is always in my dreams and thoughts all the time. Just by looking at her, it puts a smile on my face and dries up my tears. I'm just so glad I got to know her because knowing her is the best thing that has ever happened to me so far. I really hope you know how much you mean to me. =)

Exams!!!

2009-07-13T06:16:00.000-07:00

Time really passes so fast without us noticing at all. It seems like it's still May,but guess what, I'm wrong. It's July now and my final exam is coming soon. Just 3 more weeks to go. OMG!!! Can anyone help me? Haven even started studying at all, I just have a feeling that I'm so gonna fail. ><

Kobe Bryant

2009-07-05T11:55:00.000-07:00

Currently the best player on the planet. My idol as well as a player I try to learn from to improve on my game and get better as a basketball player. Motivation, Talent, Determination, Hardwork, Teamwork and Practice will get me there.

The 3 Musketeers

2009-07-04T14:17:00.000-07:00

We look damn gay man. LOL. 3 brothers each hugging a Patrick soft toy and acting cute. :P
Love you guys man..... Brother's for life..... Peace out

When I Saw You

2009-06-30T11:25:00.001-07:00

when I first saw you
I missed the comfort of being sad
seeing you from far away
without telling you about my heart
I couldn't bare holding my thoughts
about how much I would like
to hold you and fill you with joy
when I first saw you,
I knew my love for you was never going to die.

The Power Of Love

2009-06-30T11:24:00.002-07:00

Love can change everything you have known
Everything you believe with this feeling shown
A heart beating faster can make two people fly
Make you walk on water in the twinkle of an eye

It takes control of the heart, mind, body and soul
They fit that place deep inside to make you whole
The elements together fire, earth, water and air
Are nothing without love, in it they all share

Without the one you love there is nothing it seems
Together the strength can make hopes and dreams
A feeling so breathtakingly gentle lifts you up above
This natural passion comes with the power of love

True Love

2009-06-30T11:24:00.001-07:00

True love comes only once in a lifetime
yet it lasts an eternity
It has the power to crush someone so deeply
while at the same time they know
there’s no one else in the world they’d rather be with
True love will knock down the walls of difficulty
to be with that special one
It will take your hand and fly over the world
into a place where there’s no pain, no tears
True love will withstand the test of time,
forever waiting until its love is returned
It never fails, never dies, never lets go of the one they love,

Beauty In You

2009-06-30T11:22:00.000-07:00

Beauty In You.
All I see is your beauty.
Not just your physical beauty.
But beauty in all you do...
All you say...
All you are...
The beauty in your eyes,
as they shimmer in the light they catch my eye,
warming me from the inside out.
The beauty in your smile,
When you smile I wish time would stand still,
as pictures could do you no justice.
The beauty in your words,
The words you speak flow true from your heart and straight into mine,
I could listen to you for hours.
The beauty in your love,
Not just your love for me, but for everyone around you,
making them feel as special as they are.
All that I speak of now still cannot express the true beauty that you
expel in every way and every day.
All I ask is that you understand how much I love you and how lucky
I feel to have you in my life.
And that nowhere, no way, can anyone compare to the beauty
that I see in you.

Brother's For Life

2009-06-30T11:14:00.001-07:00

Kobe and Lebron

2009-06-30T11:09:00.000-07:00

Gifts from my mum.

Young And Dangerous

2009-06-30T11:06:00.000-07:00

3 brothers trying to act like "Young And Dangerous". Featuring me(Joesinn) , Abel Wong and Lim Seh Zun.

LIM brother's hanging out!!!

2009-06-28T21:51:00.001-07:00

A brother's night out to Genting Highlands. The 3 of us stoning and enjoying the fresh cold air.

I Love You

2009-06-28T21:49:00.001-07:00

You're the first thing I think of
Each morning when I rise.
You're the last thing I think of
Each night when I close my eyes.

You're in each thought I have
And every breath I take.
My feelings are growing stronger
With every move I make.

I want to prove I love you
But that's the hardest part.
So, I'm giving all I have to give
To you... I give my heart.

In Love

2009-06-28T21:47:00.002-07:00

You're the one I couldn't forget
Even at the last breath I take
You're the one my heart longs for
Because I found real joy in you.
You're the one I'll love so true
For you gave me same love too
You're the one I needed most
For I am so in love with you.

Beautiful love

2009-06-28T21:47:00.001-07:00

Always, deep within my soul,

I know we have a love like no other.

What we share is something others

only hope for and dream of,

but few ever experience.

Our love is magical beyond belief.

Always, without hesitation,

you give of yourself completely.

You have reached the very depths of my soul,

bringing out emotions I never knew I had

and unveiling an ability to love

I never thought possible.

My love

2009-06-28T21:35:00.000-07:00

My love is like an ocean
It goes down so deep
My love is like a rose
Whose beauty u want to keep

My love is like a river
That will never end
My love is like a dove
With a beautiful message to send

My love is like a song
That goes on and on forever
My love is like a prisoner
It's to you i surrender.