Giving Up

Letting go of you is hard and painful for me, but at this moment it seems the right choice to make. You might think I gave up because I don't LOVE YOU, but you are wrong, I gave up because I LOVE YOU to much and I never want you to feel pressured into making a decision. I asked you many times whether are you willing to be my girlfriend, but each time you would just answer me by saying don't you think our relationship now is fine? Do you think a guy can accept his girlfriend going out to clubs dancing and letting some other guy practically hug her and dance?, do you think a guy can accept his girlfriend going out with another guy for a movie?, or even sending messages and talking on the phone for hours with some other guy? . I seriously doubt any guy could tolerate that, but guess what, I did even though I'm not officially your boyfriend. I did not mind any of those things just because I changed myself for you, but I guess all those sacrifices I made isn't useful at all because in the end you still won't accept me. I may have let go but I won't stop loving you and caring about you, all I hope for is that you will soon find someone who loves you for who you are and care for you more than I could ever do. Everyone always ask me, hey Joesinn why you doing her assignment? Is it cause she is your girlfriend? I say no, then their reply was like wow why you so good do assignment for someone who is just your friend. I didn't mind it at all but it really hurts me because behind me they say I'm a "SOHAI". I hope you won't misunderstand what I'm trying to say here because I didn't mind at all because I think it's worth it because I really LOVE YOU. I can't say it out to you that's why I'm expressing everything on my blog. My heart hurts like mad, tears keep flowing down my cheeks, and I can't sleep at all. Deep inside I know I really LOVE YOU. I would love to be alone for this few days, don't sms me or anything because I will be fine. GOODBYE MY LOVE. I'M FINALLY LETTING GO. THE MOMENT I SAW YOUR POST SAYING LESLIE DELIVERED DESSERT TO YOU MY HEART TOTALLY SHATTERED INTO PIECES.

Galatians 2.20

I would really love to live up to this verse in the bible, but it seems like I can't no matter how hard I try. I used to be close to you GOD, but right now I have no idea what's stopping me from coming back to you. GOD I hope you will guide me back to my life with CHRIST.

Missing You

Thinking of you day and night. Missing you like mad but I'm not sure whether you can feel it or not. Would really hope you can spend more time with me and make me feel that I'm important to you. Just hope you can show me that you care about me by sometimes expressing it out. I'm feeling lost these days and there are lots in my mind that is troubling me. Hoping you can be here right now. I really miss you MY DEAR.

To my beautiful and cute cute dear

Sorry ah I haven updated my blog for so long. Hope dear likes this post la. : ) . This picture was taken by my dear at Barcelona last Saturday. My dear always looks so beautiful and cute no matter how drunk you are or how you dress. Missing you so much my dear. MMUAX

A new beginning

Behold, a new beginning. Remember, when you think all is lost and when you are ready to give up on yourself as well as the world and everything that goes with it, YOU ARE WRONG!!! Just remember "HE" is always ready to be there for you, he will guide you, hold your hands as you encounter difficulties in life, and he will carry you through all the disappointment that you are facing. So, remember never ever give up, because you still have "HIM". Who is "HE"? He is our god, our beloved father who gave us life and the heaven and the earth, he is always next to you waiting for you to seek his guidance and love. Thank you god, I may have strayed apart from you, but you have never ever given up on me yet, and for that I thank you with all my heart and soul, I thank you for being next to me waiting for me just to call your name, I thank you for not giving up on me and everyone else that has given up on you and forgotten you, for all this I thank you.

When all fails, "HE" doesn't because he is the almighty god.

Ni Bu Zai

Dang shi jie zhi sheng xia zhe chuang tou deng
Ni na bian shi zao chen yi jing chu men
Wo ce shen gan dao ni zai zhuan shen
Wu shu mo shen ren
Zheng zai deng xia yi ge lu deng
Yi zai cuo shi bi ci cui ruo de shi fen
Bu guo ke wang yi ge wen de yu wen
Wo guan le deng
Hei an ba wo bing tun

Ni bu zai
Dang wo zui xu yao ai
Ni que bu zai
Wu ji deng dai xiang du bai de nan ai

Ni bu zai
Gao xing hai shi bei ai
Ni dou bu zai
Wo shou le shang zai tou tou hao qi lai
Dan ni bu zai
Bu zai

Shi jian zai an xia xu duo ci kuai men
Chen muo li ting jian zhuan dong de miao zhen
Yi ge ren chi fan zhe ge qing chen
Gu du yi ren fen
Ni di shen shuo ni you bie ren
Wo de hua tong zhi you zi ji de ti wen
Zen yang ren zhen ye bu yi ding cheng zhen
Ni shuo de dui
Wo bu de bu cheng ren

Na xie yao bai
Wo dou ming bai
Dou ming bai
Dan ni bu zai
Ai yi bu zai
Bu zai

Ni bu zai
Dang wo zui xu yao ai
Ni que bu zai
Yi ge ren fen shi liang jiao de lian ai

Ni bu zai
Gao xing hai shi bei ai
Ni dou bu zai

Xiang kong qi ban bu cun zai de cun zai
Zai mei you hen ji de ai
Ni bu zai
Dang wo xu yao ni de ai
Ni bu zai

Crush (falling in love with YOU)

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside it was a rush, what a rush

Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way
About me, just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl?
Are we just friends? Is there more? Is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever!

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we could be, where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain?t going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we could be, where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going away-ay-ay
This crush ain't going away-ay-ay

Going away
Going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay