Giving Up

Letting go of you is hard and painful for me, but at this moment it seems the right choice to make. You might think I gave up because I don't LOVE YOU, but you are wrong, I gave up because I LOVE YOU to much and I never want you to feel pressured into making a decision. I asked you many times whether are you willing to be my girlfriend, but each time you would just answer me by saying don't you think our relationship now is fine? Do you think a guy can accept his girlfriend going out to clubs dancing and letting some other guy practically hug her and dance?, do you think a guy can accept his girlfriend going out with another guy for a movie?, or even sending messages and talking on the phone for hours with some other guy? . I seriously doubt any guy could tolerate that, but guess what, I did even though I'm not officially your boyfriend. I did not mind any of those things just because I changed myself for you, but I guess all those sacrifices I made isn't useful at all because in the end you still won't accept me. I may have let go but I won't stop loving you and caring about you, all I hope for is that you will soon find someone who loves you for who you are and care for you more than I could ever do. Everyone always ask me, hey Joesinn why you doing her assignment? Is it cause she is your girlfriend? I say no, then their reply was like wow why you so good do assignment for someone who is just your friend. I didn't mind it at all but it really hurts me because behind me they say I'm a "SOHAI". I hope you won't misunderstand what I'm trying to say here because I didn't mind at all because I think it's worth it because I really LOVE YOU. I can't say it out to you that's why I'm expressing everything on my blog. My heart hurts like mad, tears keep flowing down my cheeks, and I can't sleep at all. Deep inside I know I really LOVE YOU. I would love to be alone for this few days, don't sms me or anything because I will be fine. GOODBYE MY LOVE. I'M FINALLY LETTING GO. THE MOMENT I SAW YOUR POST SAYING LESLIE DELIVERED DESSERT TO YOU MY HEART TOTALLY SHATTERED INTO PIECES.